I went to urgent care yesterday

I went to an urgent care emergency room yesterday and this is what happened. Before I went, I had noticed I had been urinating a lot more than usual, on little to no fluid intake. Super weird and it freaked me out. My heart rate was also high as was my blood pressure. My temperature …

Last night I felt very bad. I was weak and felt lightheaded and clammy. When I tried to sleep I would wake up every hour feeling like I could pass out right in my bed. I had mild episodes of feeling like I was going to lose conciousness through out the night. Very frustrating and …

Struggling with failing health and feeling completely helpless and alone

I am now fully and completely convinced that not being understood or believed is the worst feeling ever. So today after calling my endo's office I FINALLY got the test results back for my metanprhine levels. The nurse at the endo said it was faxed to my other doctor, my primary. I emailed them and …

Changes

Life changes have definitely been on the horizon in my life lately. I'll start with the biggest.   So I got a second job at a grocery store that has opened near me. I will be a courtesy clerk (just like my first job back in 2015). I will be bagging groceries and dragging carts …

I’m overwhelmed

It started after my mom died. I noticed I became kind of indifferent toward God. It was weird because I didn't have a hard time processing my mom's death.  I did my crying the night before she died at the hospice center. When I said my goodbyes I was at peace knowing where she was …

They grow like weeds indeed

So many things have happened in life. Things just aren't how they used to be anymore. My first-born niece is growing up into a young lady faster than grass. I used to be her best friend when she was younger and as a result she really looked up to me. Things are much different now. …

Story of my mom’s cancer and passing

When I was 20 years old my mom became ill with lung cancer. I knew she had been really sick for a loooooong time, years actually. In a way I was prepared for it because of this. It started with her losing her balance and falling over. In the years leading up to her diagnosis …

No more tears

Today is the first day of my weekend. I had an emotionally rough week. From the bird's eye view, it really wasn't as rough as it could have been, but for me it felt like I barely made it to this day. My misophonia and OCD were killin' it big time. At work I struggled …

Lonely and angry

What I would like to know is, if God is happy with me, why does He let me feel such painful emotions and does nothing to take it away or allow me to feel His love? I don't ask Him to send me a miracle or take my problems away, I could be just fine …

God help me

I am in the dark again. It seems I have been coming back here a lot now. It scares me. Especially since each time I return, a stronger feeling of helplessness rises up within me. I'm torn. This morning I had an unwholesome dream and indulged in it when I woke up. I immediately recoiled …